Dreams vs reality. Emotions vs logic. Left brain vs right brain. Spontaneity vs schedule.
Call it what you will, it all boils down to the same struggle.
On the one hand, we want to be creative and free and pursue our passions. We want to spend our days creating art in all forms, being outside, staying up late, following our impulses. The thought of spending the rest of our lives chained to the proverbial corporate desk repulses us. We don’t want to do menial homework assignments or file someone else’s business. We want to go on road trips and paint with our fingers and spend hours listening to our favorite music.
We just want to easily make a living doing what we love. Of course we do–who wouldn’t?
On the other hand, part of us knows that just isn’t practical. We don’t want to be that starving artist living in their parents attic who never sells a painting. Society tells us to be realistic, and we know that society has a very good point. We want to be confident in our future, be financially stable, be health conscious, keep our house clean, feed the cat … the list goes on. We have responsibilities, and we need and want to stay on top of them. We want to be rational and functional adults.
I think about this struggle all the time, and lately I’ve realized that life doesn’t work at either extreme. That’s why I chose this title: the Scientific Artist. I’m definitely a scientific thinker; I analyze information, put things in categories, want things to make sense, try to follow the logical course. But I’m also an artist; I create new things, notice colors, love unstructured creative time, and have an intuitive sense for aesthetic.
These two methods of thought aren’t mutually exclusive. I try to bring science to my art and art to my science, keeping my expression rational while keeping my observations human.
I definitely don’t have all the answers yet, and I still see several areas of life where the two seem to be in conflict. I’ll revisit this topic several times on this blog. For now, I’m trying to equally use my logical side and my creative side.
What do you think? Have you felt this struggle before? What has helped you find balance?